I saw his face every time I fall asleep and it is so frustrating. He is just too close yet too far for me to reach. Every night I witnessed tears streaming down his rosy cheeks, feeling scared if he might not get the chance to wake up anymore. He's my life. It hurts me when every time I close my eyes, I see him drifting away from me and I feel so lost and confused. It's like apart of me just died and I can't seem to hold him close just like how he did. And it is just devastating. The waves were just too strong for me. Stronger than my heart. I can't lose him but I am losing him right now.
Sometimes we asked ourselves whether things going to be find if we keeps on trying. But don't you ever feel tired of trying? 'Cause I am. I'm tired of trying things that I know I can't make it, so why even try. But imagine whats going to happen if you give up. You'll fall hard on your ass. The aftermath is never fun because regrets will always haunt you back down no matter how hard you try to push it away. Don't you see it? It's over. You can't change thing that have been done. It's just too late. Wake up and deal with it. I have struggles through pain and sorrow and thinking on how can it be okay when the truth is it will never be okay. He's gone, how can I not see that?
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